H.a.t.r.e.d

What is it feels like to be hated ..

You are hated because you had made a mistake that is silly
They think you are responsible on what they had entrusted you to do
Even you only did on voluntarily

Sometimes you wish this wouldn't happen
Sometimes you wish you could just forget everything
And you wish you could go on without it

And you continue to live on
And you wished that there will be a day you can forget this feeling

But you can't, eventually
No matter how exciting your life will be
No matter how many great things happened on you
There will be this very day comes back to you
Where you thought of the day you had made the silly mistake

Now you have lost a friend
That you just realize your friend is important to you
But it's too late and there's no turning back
And you have to admit it

There's nothing you can do after this
You just left the thing as it is
Hopefully, you think this will be a valuable lesson to you
That you wouldn't do the same mistake again

...
If I did not lost it
I would not have lost my good friend 2 years ago
Where the thing is very valuable to her

I was persistent in finding it on those days
It was in vain

This incident has been motivating me

Therefore I just only wanted my friends to be happy
For them to feel happy that there's value of a friend
Where I don't mind doing the hard works